Women in Horror Month- SCP Feb eZine, Free Download!

Siren's Call Publications are celebrating Women in Horror Month by dedicating their February issue to the event, and only featuring female writers (men get their turn next time).  What's more, its free to download! Go and check it out now! :)

(My poem "Fey Shaper" is featured this month- thank you, SCP!)

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What's Happening in February?

Hello February!

Hello everyone! Like the picture? You can make one too, using the PULP-O-MIZER- just select what backgrounds, colours and characters you'd like, change the text and you'll have your own vintage-style science-fiction magazine cover!  They're great fun to play with, and I thought this would make a nifty and eye-catching header/introduction to my blog! Think I'll start the important ones like this from now on!

I also really love this style of artwork- its beautiful aesthetic, and I've really been into it ever since Bioshock (although they take a darker twist on that look!).

Isn't February usually the most depressing of months?  I've often found it to to be the worst month of the year for me...the weather is miserable, money isn't usually good, and you can't seem to get around like you normally would.  Anyone who's read my End-of-2012 blog entries will know last February was an awful time of the year for me, and I wasn't really expecting anything different for this year.  However, I am pleased to say that this month isn't really going too badly right now!  There seems to be a lot of really good things going on at the moment, which I will share with you momentarily. I'm also working on some new projects, and there just seems to be a really positive energy about that I usually don't see this time of the year

Upcoming Publications
I have mentioned these before, but I have some upcoming publications just around the corner.  Coming soon from Siren's Call Publications is the Bellows of the Bone Box anthology- an eerie collection of Steampunk-Horror.  My contribution is a short story called "Clockwork Doll", which was a real joy to write, and I also hope will be a joy to read- but I should warn you, its creepy!

Coming this month, Siren's Call Publication's bi-monthly eZine celebrates Women in Horror month (don't worry, the men get their turn next time!), and my poem "Fey Shaper" will be featured.  If you were the sort of child who stubbornly watched creepy movies and read scary books in spite of the nightmares they were giving you, you'll certainly get what this poem is about.

Also upcoming, Hic Dragones will be releasing their Impossible Spaces Anthology, which features many short stories from a range of dark genres.  My short story "Skin" was accepted into this anthology, much to my delight, as I really fell in love with the characters as I was writing this- this was a short story that I became very emotionally invested in, so I am so pleased by its acceptance.  "Skin" is a tragic romance within a dystopian science-fiction setting- but its no Romeo and Juliet, think more a twisted take on the Gift of the Magi.  More details to follow, as I recieve them!

New Projects
I am currently working on two more short stories, with the intention of submitting them by the end of March.  One might be influenced by the horror genre, but both are definitely fantasy.  For one, I am currently doing a lot of research into mythology (a subject I feel I have a decent amount of knowledge in already, but its a great subject, and one you can't learn too much about, I feel!), but the other one is still at the trickier part of planning.  With the acceptance of Skin into Impossible Spaces, I am also determined to revisit the story and expand upon it; there were a lot of possibilities left to explore but as it was a short story with a word count limit, I had to put that aside.  I am excited at the prospect of returning to this story in a more indepth manner at some point soon.

I am also working on some artwork projects at the moment, including tattoo artwork, and also some illustrations for novels I want to work on.

Speaking of novels...

Secrets Revealed...?
I am a very secretive writer by nature, for various reasons ranging from sheer paranoia to a lack of confidence, but for the most part, I dislike divulging information about works in progress.  However, during my last post for the Insecure Writer's Support Group, I decided to take a little step and announced the name of what will be my first novel.

The novel will be called "Night Gods", and I have been working on it for some time- a long time in fact.  I'm not entirely sure when I began writing it, but I think I may have been writing it for about four years or so, which has prompted a running joke between my brother and I (anyone who has seen the ongoing banter between Stewie and Brian Griffin in Family Guy, regarding how slow Brian is in writing his own novel, will probably be able to guess how it pans out!).  Its been a tricky one, as it has a huge amount of personal content, and has been frequently plagued by the Dreaded Writer's Block.  It started as a dream I had some years ago, a very vivid one that I can still remember clearly to this day.  However, as a story emerged from the dream, it took on a lot of emotion and sometimes has been a struggle to continue.  There have been several long periods where I have been unable to touch it at all, which then abruptly end with a flurry of pages almost writing themselves.  I have learned to let myself have breaks from Night Gods, or to let it have a break from me, and only push it in the right places- its been a very organic writing processed, influenced very strongly on my feelings at the time. 

So what can I tell you about Night Gods?  Well, firstly, I can tell you that when I imagine scenes from the story, or even when I'm physically writing it, I have to be listening to the music of my favourite band, The Birthday Massacre, which makes up the majority of its secret "soundtrack".  I can also tell you that Night Gods is written entirely by hand; Night Gods began at a time when I was convinced I had "forgotten" how to write and was profoundly unhappy with anything I produced.  However, I found that writing it out by hand gives it a raw, emotional feeling that I couldn't seem to achieve by typing alone, and it has stuck that way (this of course has contributed to delay in finishing it- I have typed up everything that I've written on paper, editing and embellishing on the way, and of course, I suffer from tendonitis which can make writing by hand for long periods painful).  Also, I like to consider the story as influenced by a weird combination of Neil Gaiman's Sandman, the Labyrinth, and the creepy video game series, Silent Hill. 

I can also tell you that Night Gods will be finished this year.  It was my first New Years resolution in years, but, encouraged by getting published for the first time ever in the autumn, I realised that really, I can do this! I am now in the final part of the novel, moving very steadily towards the climax of the tale, and so I hope that by the summer I will have also moved onto the editing and revising process.  This is a little daunting for me, as last summer I had no idea how to edit, but I have picked up some good habits and knowledge already since then.  Writing short stories has taught me some helpful things that I'm sure will be very useful when editing a novel. 

I am also starting a little work on another novel (I wish they would they would just be patient and wait their turn, but ideas can be sooo demanding!), as its starting to nudge me with good ideas.

More Secrets and Things?
I doubt it'll be a surprise to anyone who's been reading this blog since it started last autumn, but I am not very adept with social networking, blogging and online publicity in general- not very good for an author and an online-magazine writer!  But that isn't for a lack of trying, and Blogspot and Twitter are slowly becoming less alien to me as I attempt to keep everyone updated.

This hasn't been a fruitless endeavour, but I would like to try and draw a larger audience, and I've decided one thing I might like to do is try giving any readers of this blog a snippet of some of my fiction writing that they don't need to buy or download (wow, I'm being brave, divulging information about my novel and sharing writing?! *gasp*).  I have a short story I wrote last summer that I'm going to be revisiting at a later date, but for the time being, it is just collecting figurative dust.  I believe people may find it enjoyable to read, even in its current form, however, and I think it might be worth sharing with people.

Its called "Moriko", and if you are a fan of Japanese mythology and folktales, this maybe right up your alley.  So if you would like to read some snippets from Moriko, please leave a comment and let me know!

Stuff and Oddments
You know, its funny how February is such a naff month, yet also has a lot going on in it.  We've had Imbolc and Setsubun already, then its Chinese New Year (that's today, Year of the Snake, doncha know?), then the beginning of Lent, Mardi Gras, Carnivale, Valentine's Day...despite it being the most miserable month of the calendar, there are a lot of events and dates going on!  Regardless of what nation or culture those celebrations might originate from, I like to acknowledge them all in my own way; I just like to take advantage of all that positive energy.  This time of the year, there is no harm in a little self-indulgence to help you get through the soggy, gloomy days.  This is something that I've been doing, even little things like treating myself to little cosmetic products while shopping or buying a nice hot chocolate from Costa when its cold.  So everyone, don't feel bad about treating yourself, and just hang on in there- spring is on the way! (Although it would be lovely if she could hurry up!)

So as you can see, I have finally gotten around to proudly posing with my copy of FEAR Anthology Volume 2, in which my short story "Candlelight" appears.  This book will always have a special place in my heart (and on my bookshelf!) as it is the first time my work has ever been published in a printed book!  I just can't believe that it won't be long before I appear in two more!  Candlelight is based on a nightmare I had about my younger brother being haunted by ghostly orphans- perfect for a stormy night.
If you are interested in any of my other fiction works, click the following links:

-"Alone in the Dark", Siren's Call Publications eZine issue #4, August issue, Dark and Edgy Horror

-"Candlelight", Crooked Cat Publishing, FEAR Anthology Volume 2 (proceeds go to charity)

-"Oiran" Siren's Call Publications eZine, issue #6, December issue, Frozen

And of course, I still write articles on Gothic and Alternative lifestyle and culture for EGL Magazine under my pen name, "Blackavar".

Thanks everyone for reading; please leave a comment if you want to read excerpt of Moriko.  Have a lovely February and lets hope spring makes it here soon!

Insecure Writer's Support Group- Acknowledging Inspiration, Nods and Influences?



I have no problems with finding inspiration; I'm exposed to a lot of it.  I read like a little addicted bookworm, I watch a fair amount of film and television (more of the former than the latter) and I am interested in various non-fictional subjects that I love to read up on and consume knowledge.  I listen to a various different music genres, which are probably one of the most stimulating things for me, creatively speaking, I admire many forms of artwork which sometimes compel me to creatre a story to reflect the images, and even the various video games I enjoy dabbling in will inspire me.  And if all those sources weren't enough for me, I also have what my fiance calls a "naturally occurring form of crack" that is found only in my brain, and gives me extremely vivid, bizarre and crazy dreams.  I have used them for inspiration in the past, and will continue to do so.

We are always influenced by someone else, and that is just a fact of life when it comes to anything creative.  Even if we produced something original, some of its soul will have come from elsewhere.  Even things that reflect on our childhoods usually also reflect on whatever media we absorbed at that age- movies, cartoons, storybooks, etc.  Some of my favourite things from childhood that I think influenced me creatively were movies such as Labyrinth and the Dark Crystal, and books by writers such as Roald Dahl and KA Applegate's Animorph series.  As an adult, my influences have extended to include authors auch as Neil Gaiman (naturally), Phillip Pullman and Clive Barker, among a myriad of others, and films, musicians and games.

But do you ever get to a point where you worry if your inspiration is becoming more than just a nod to something that spoke to you?  Do you ever worry that your work is fast becoming more than just a tribute and becoming a rip off?

When I was in my pre-teen years, I used to spend the summer holidays writing lots of stories.  Heck, in my teen years, I wrote stories all the time.  There are several that stand to mind that, frankly, despite my pride in writing them, were practically plagirised from whatever I was interested in at the time.  After reading James Herbert's "Fluke", I suddenly churned out lots of little stories about people being reincarnated into black labradors.  Sometimes, one would even be named "Fluke", just for extra lack of originality :P Shortly after Star Wars Episode 1: The Phantom Menace was released, I began a short series of sci-fi stories about a Princess Amistable (not all that far off from "Amidala", not that I realised it for some time) fighting against some nasty space tyrants.  In fairness, that story had a certain amount of deviancy from the Star Wars universe that inspired it, but my following series, when I was in Year 10, was a blatant rip-off of the Dragonball Z Universe.  The first story basically was Final-Fantasy: The Spirits Within meets the Saiyan Saga.  What it spawned became slightly more creative, but picked huge elements from Akira Toriyama's creation. 

Of course, I was just a kid writing for fun at the time, and had no understanding even on the simplest level of how to get published.  However, despite my constant borrowing from other creative minds, my English teacher clearly saw the potential- he told me he fully expected to see my name on a book one day.  He also encouraged me to draw on my own experiences in my writing.

Some other stories have been attempted, and then trashed for lack of originality over the years, but my current stories, I do feel, are all my own.  All of the short stories I have submitted since the summer have been my own stories, even if they have had their influences (Moriko- Daughter of the Forest was definately heavily influenced by Princess Mononoke and Okami, but I still feel it was my own tale).  One of my short stories was definately my own - it was a retelling of a true event that happened to me after all! Another was inspired by a nightmare I had suffered.

Its mainly my novels I worry about.  I am nearly finishing the first draft of a novel I am titling "Night Gods" (this it the first time I have publically admitted the title, as I am so secretive* ), and on many occasion, I have wondered how to describe it.  Usually something along the following emerges: " a mixture of Neil Gaiman's Sandman, Labyrinth, the Neverending Story and Silent Hill" (I love to put Silent Hill right at the end, just to interrupt the line of lovely, fantasy sources :P ).  A huge portion of Night Gods comes directly from my own dreams, but the other influences are there.  Music by my favourite band The Birthday Massacre also makes up the entire, secret soundtrack that I imagine when visualising the story. 

On a confident day, I know damn well that no one will have read anything quite like Night Gods before.  Despite all those influences, I know that the story comes very much from within me- it is a very personal tale, and reflects directly on personal emotions, experiences and observations.  On a not-so-confident day, I fear the story being compared unfavourably to the inspiration from which I cannot deny had coloured it.

I have to remind myself that this is NOT a bad thing.  This is not the same thing as copying.  Every writer does the same thing- some of the greats have admitted as much, time and time again.  Perhaps, its just because at this point in time, I remain unpublished as a novelist, and doubt my work.  Perhaps when it is completed and people have the opportunity to go on that adventure, I will see that I have sold myself short?  I certainly hope so. 

Most of the inspirations have become mostly aesthetic at any rate.  I have two more novel ideas, waiting in the wings after Night Gods, and both I used to worry were "copies".  The one that will follow was originally sparked into life by watchng the extended teaser trailer for The Devil's Carnival- the story that now follows barely resembles TDC in any form, but the imagery of that teaser trailer remains a strong element in my idea.  The other, the full-length version of my short story Skin is more original, but also has huge aesthetic influence from last year's blockbuster, Prometheus (although the stories resemble each other in no way!).  Obviously, I am very much visually stimulated- certain pictures and images spark off ideas that carry off on their own, and will go a very different path, even if they share the same colours.

So, the question I pose, is when you know full well you have drawn influence from another artist, what is the best way to handle that?  If you are confident that you have not ripped off someone else, merely accepted the influence and crafted something of your own, how do you appropriately nod towards the inspiration? 

I recently had a poem accepted, in which I reference two things- in the submitting email, I made a point of pointing those out, as I was unsure of whether or not it could be "allowed".  One reference was "Say your right words", a line taken directly from Labyrinth ("'Say your right words,' the goblins said"  as the line in the movie goes).  Another was a nod towards the film adaptation of Coraline- by mentioning that stones with holes are "good for lost things sometimes".  Now, I should mention the poem is about scary films influencing children when they go to sleep and see shadows on the walls, so it wasn't a case of me just ripping off dialogue, but clearly referencing something else :P. 

What is the correct way to acknowledge the inspiration or artist who influenced you and came before you?  Is there a particular way of going about it? 

So that's whats been on my mind recently.  I have to say, there is one thing that does come to mind that does set my mind a little bit at ease; I recently finished reading Clive Barker's Weaveworld.  Its an absolutely beautiful book, and at the end, little prickles of tears stung my eyes.  I was struck how some of the themes and elements remined me of Night Gods- however, I certainly can't have "ripped" Weaveworld off- Weaveworld has been knocking about for years, I only started reading it last year, and have been writing Night Gods for about three or four years now (yes, I am slow).  So I guess perhaps that a lot of authors and writers are simply wired in the same way- we think on similar wave lengths and certain subjects and possibilities occur to us, no matter how different from one another we try to be :)

(* I think being secretive is one of my problems.  I am nervous of sharing my work for various reasons, so without other people to take a look at it, I can't always be sure of just HOW original my ideas are).

Hope you all had a good January (mine turned out alright after I recovered- thanks for all the comments, and apologies again for the whiny-ness of that last post!) and happy February to you all :)

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Belated Happy Imbolc/Setsubun!

Spring is coming!!!!

In my strange pagan-but-not-pagan way, I've acknowledged the more traditional Imbolc (Saturday) and Japanese Setsubun (arguably Sunday or Monday)- no wonder putting my religion down on the census is a tricky endeavour!

Whatever you celebrate, hope you had a good one!

I have to say if the end of January is the way the rest of the year is going to go, I am totally ok with that!  And the beginning of February hasn't been too shabby either!  Within the space of of 2 weeks, I have had two submissions accepted- last week, Hic Dragones accepted my short story "Skin" for their Impossible Spaces anthology.  The other day, Siren's Call Publications accepted my quirky little poem "Fey Shaper" for their February issue of their bi-monthly eZine, coming soon!  I was particularly keen to get it included, as February is Women in Horror month! :)

And of course, also coming soon, my story "Clockwork Doll" will be featured in SCP's steampunk anthology, but more on that when I have more details!

So I have other ideas to get working on as well, so I best be off.  On a slightly random note I also need to go to a fabric store to pick up material for a costume- I'm going to be dressing up as Inanna, Sumerian Goddess of Love, Sex and Warfare.  The normal life for me, eh? ^^;;

x

January 2013!

Proper happy new year everyone!

I'm going to start by apologising for the useless, whiny and crappy IWSG post I made at the beginning this month (god, that feels like it was ages ago), but as you will know if you read it, I was pathetically ill.  I ended up missing deadlines because it, and the 10 minutes it took me to write that post wiped me out; I had to go and have a lie down afterwards.  I have never had a flu like it before.  Usually flu knocks me down, makes me tired and a bit unhappy for 2 days max, then its just back to cold-like symptoms and I can return to work (although with a pack of tissues and hand sanitizer in my pockets!).  After my initial 2-day sleepy-stint I went back to work only to find I could no longer walk properly and still hurt everywhere.  In the end I had another 3 days off work, stretching the illness out over about a week and half, and even then, I returned to work before all my symptoms abated (I had 3 more days of having to sit on a chair because, despite feeling loads better, I had a perpetually-drunk feeling, and was very dizzy).  I also ended up missing a planned girly film night with some of my lovely ladies :(  So yeah I'm sorry for all the moaning, it was not a particularly supportive post!

But it turns out that I was lucky.  Some of my friends became massively ill, worse so than myself, and one of my friends even contracted Norovirus (she also missed the film night).  Loads of my colleagues were struck down around the same time as me or just after, and I think my attempts to return to work were appreciated.  It actually feels like it was ages ago now, and it feels weird, because even though January started off pretty poo, it seems it was determined to be a pretty good month!  Its been a long month, but January has delivered some good stuff!

Things from this month!

Well, lets see, first of all, I managed to get better just in time for my friend's birthday celebrations in London, where I got to stay in a hotel by myself for the first time evar! :3 Which, of course, meant excitedly taking loads of random photos of my hotel room even though it was just a totally basic Travel Lodge XD

(Which inevitably also meant obligatory "myspace mirror" poses in the bathroom and poses of the favourite teddy bear hogging the bed).

That was a wonderful time, getting to spend time with my friends and celebrate with them, and have a mini adventure.  They were also very poorly, and had barely recovered in time, but they enjoyed themselves also.  We also had "late" Christmas exchanges, and I also gave my friend a drawing I made for his birthday.

That had been something of interest as well.  Although I don't share a lot of my artwork (for fear of it getting stolen- my DA account has...virus issues), I am an artist as well as a writer, and I had been planning on this drawing since just before Christmas.  It is inspired by HR Giger, but turned out more organic in appearance.  I drew it all in just black and white pencil, but had been worrying about not getting it done in time, as I was still ill around the time I needed to get started.  In the week leading up to my friend's birthday, however, I powered through the drawing and the shading; getting totally stuck into a piece of artwork is one my most favourite things in the world, despite the concentration and the challenge of the work; there is something wonderfully relaxing about just getting into it.  I think that coming immediately after such a rough start to the new year was something I really needed.  Its also something that requires a different sort of energy.  You are working hard, but its not intensive, so perfect when recovering from sickies.

That in fact has just reminded me in turn- although I was still very ill on New Year's Eve, our family New Year celebrations were rather lovely.  My aunt and uncle came over and made us all dinner, and then we played charades and had a good old laugh.  It was very toned down and quiet after the previous year, but the intimacy and togetherness was just right.  I became rather emotional as midnight came, and had a big cuddle with everyone, in particular my mum.  It was such a nice way to do it, all together and being grateful for the things we have, and feeling optimistic for the new year (despite the lurgy :P ).

Well, after London, it seemed it was back to the dull life for me, and I instead focused on shopping and spring cleaning.  The former was both a necessity and a pleasure for me; I genuinely needed new things, and loved finding them (especially at bargain prices...no I didn't hit the sales, I just found some very good things!).  Spring cleaning was less fun, but extremely satisfying.  For the first time in a million years or so, I actually spring-cleaned my book cases and weeded out a substantial collection for selling and donating.  That was a difficult task, but once again, a necessary one. 

Then we had the snow!

I love the first day of snow (walking in snow only slows me down, and I have a wonderful coat for the snow!), but wasn't it chaos for everyone else?  I was about 5 minutes late for work, and went to apologise to my supervisor- and he was just relieved I turned up because he had no staff!  Madness!  Mind you, I know some people genuinely couldn't get about (my dad spent an hour that morning trying to leave town but gave up), but some people love to take the mick a bit.  For me, its the ice in the following days that are a problem, and it was turning a 20 minute journey into a 40 minute one.  Fortunately, being the only one to turn up in the snow puts you in your boss' good books, even if you are 15 minutes late for work the next shift due to trying to climb uphill in the ice ^^;;

Since then, I've had my review at work, and I've been given nothing but shining praise, nothing negative at all.  I was astounded; while all my reviews at my old job were positive and good, this was a brilliant review, and left me feeling very good about myself :)

Other awesome things have included going with my good friend Alana when she got her raven tattoo last weekend (she accompanied me for my rabbit tattoo), hanging out with my friends, designing tattoos, completing Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep (YES!), treating myself to nice things (including new books and strawberries-and-milkshake body butter!), playing with my dolls (yes, I collect dolls <.< )and writing :)

Writing!

I have had limited internet access this month- of course, when I was poorly, I couldn't sit upright, and then we had a period of a little over a week or so when our PC was deaded and at Computer Hospital (technical terms, thems :P ).  So beside photographing things needlessly, spring cleaning, reading and playing with dolls, I spent a lot more time writing.  For the first time in a couple of months, I was able to work more on my novel (I have only one New Year's resolution- I will finish this novel this year!) and was able to churn out a fair few pages that I was actually happy with.  Then I started working on some other ideas for submissions that are coming up (although sadly, I think my zombie one has been abandoned).

I would say that the last half of 2012 was pretty darn productive in terms of writing, and I was starting to feel like I wasn't doing quite enough (its only January, Laura, sheesh!)...when I had some more developments.

I am ever so happy to announce that my short story "Skin" was accepted by Hic Dragones for their Impossible Spaces Anthology.  "Skin" is a tragic romance of sorts (in a science fiction setting) and was heavily influenced by my long-distance relationship with my fiance, Harry.  I poured a little bit too much heart and soul into that one, and was already dreading rejection, knowing I'd invested so much in it emotionally.  Fortunately that is not the case, and I am ever so pleased.  Great start to 2013!

I also submitted a poem today.  I have not written poetry in years, and this one started out life as rambled scribblings in my Monster High notebook during a quiet moment at work, so I can't be sure if it will impress the publishers and editors (I tend to write rather abstract poetry, with irregular stanzas and very random, occasional, but inconsistent rhyming), but it was fun to do, and was nice to have a go at something slightly different.

So thats my writing news.  A little bit at the end here, about this very old lady...

Her name is Puffin, and she is 18, and I've had her since kitten-hood.  And earlier this week, I became very worried about her, as it became clear that...time is catching up with her.  She's an outside cat (with her own lovely little house we like to call Casa De Puffin), and used to be extremely active, but we've noticed a sharp decline in shenanigans, and a sharp increase in...bumping into things.  We think Puffin's eyesight is going.

I was very upset this week, having to cope with the fact that, at some point, Puffin will leave us.  But I have to say, I'm finding some more peace with that now.  I have a statue of the Egyptian cat goddess, Bast, on my dresser, and...well, I basically told her my feelings and got it all out, then resolved to make Puffin's remaining time with as happy as possible.  She's not in any pain, after all, just getting very old. 

Puffin, I have to say, is super impressed with this; not only was she much livelier today, but she was very happy to be given all her special treats (as I'm deciding to spoil her rotten! :) ) and even seemed to be able to see Dad earlier, and demand more treats XD  Maybe she's not getting old at all, and just trying to trick me into giving her treats? ;)

Puffin...love you to bits, you daft fluffy thing.  Stick around for a bit longer, old girl, and have a good time x

So that's January! (Just before midnight, so its still January!)  The month may have had a rocky start, but things have improved wonderfully, and if this is how the rest of the year looks...well...BRING IT ON! :)

Insecure Writer's Support Group- Just...Failing...

Happy New Year all...although right now I'm quite wretched...this won't be a long post at all...I shouldn't be online at all.  I am so sick.  Its meant to be just some measley flu, but its been going on for over a week.  The muscular aches are gone, but the congestion, head pain, hacking cough, lack of apetite and a bizarre dizzy-shakiness that makes me feel perpetually drunk (minus the fun parts) all lingers.  I had 2days off work last week, and then went back in on Monday (I really shouldn't have).  I felt marginally better yesterday but then I felt worse than ever, so I had to call in again today, and have spent all day in bed.  I REALLY hope it goes away soon...the lack of apetite and the shakiness alone are making normal life impossible (I was sitting on a chair at work the last 2 days and I was unsteady even on that).

Whats really bummed me out is how its just wrecking all my plans.  I missed a deadline because I was too ill to write.  I shouldn't be sitting upright at all.  And I'm really disappointed because I had put a lot of planning work into it.  I also REALLY need to do some artwork in the next and a half, but Im too ill draw.  I need to finish this.

So I'm off to play Sonic while lying down and crying.  Happy New Year everyone *sigh*

2012 Highlights!

So, thank you to everyone who took the time to read my 2012 and reflections, both parts 1 and 2 (despite the massive typos! I guess I was more tired than I realised!).

Although I have already given a blog/journal account of all the awesome things from this year, I figured I would now share with you some highlights with some pictures and links!  Some are just little experiences with a photo, but most involve either my fiction writing or articles I have written for EGL Magazine under my pen-name, Blackavar.

I'm listing them in chronological order- enjoy!




Interview with Alternative Model and Proud Geek Delilah Sixthessence
http://www.egl-magazine.co.uk/delilah-sixthessence.html
This was an interview I absolutely loved doing- Delilah is not your typical alt model by any means, but she was an absolute pleasure to work with, and her interview came at a time when I really needed a boost of positivity!  Love this lady, she's smart, talented and just lovely!

Visiting Camden Town, London

A Mecca of sorts for gothy and alternative types in the UK, I finally got to visit and explore Camden for the first time back in April.  My initial exploration was short, as I was actually there to see Emilie Autumn perform at the Electric Ballroom, but only a month later I was back to have a proper adventure- and my, what a wonderful town!


Reviewing Emilie Autumn's "Fight like a Girl" album for EGL Magazine
As Emilie Autumn is one of my favourite musicians, having the opportunity to review her latest album this summer was absolutely amazing.  You can read the review here, at EGL Magazine: http://www.egl-magazine.co.uk/emilie-autumn-review.html


Interviewing Emilie Autumn for EGL Magazine
So you can imagine if I was excited to review Emilie's album, you might be able to also imagine just how happy I was to be granted the chance to interview her shortly after the review!  This was an amazing experience, because it almost felt like having a chat with her over tea!
http://www.egl-magazine.co.uk/emilie-autumn-interview.html


Publication of "Alone in the Dark", Siren's Call Publications
My first publication- my short story "Alone in the Dark" was selected to appear in SCP's bi-monthly eZine, August edition, Dark and Edgy Horror (Issue 4).  Its about a frightening experience I had in my teens and the contemplation of what truly lies in the world about us.  As my first publication, this was amazing and very exciting for me!  The eZine is available to buy from the following link:
http://www.sirenscallpublications.com/ezine.htm


Reviewing The Birthday Massacre's "Hide and Seek" album
The Birthday Massacre are my favourite band.  I had been eager to listen to their new album, "Hide and Seek" and had it on pre-order, so imagine my delight when I was given the opportunity to hear it early so that I could review it!  Another amazing honour- now I can't wait for TBM to return to the UK so I can see them live again!
http://www.egl-magazine.co.uk/the-birthday-massacre-review.html
(Fun fact- I'm listening to this album on repeat as I write this blog post!)


Publication of "Candlelight", Crooked Cat Publishing

This October, I appeared in print! In a physical, actual book that sits on the bookshelf!  My short story "Candlelight" is about a brother and sister and their experiences in an unpleasant, old Victorian flat, and appears in Crooked Cat's FEAR Anthology Volume 2.  The proceeds of both volumes of the FEAR anthology go to charity, and are available from Amazon.
http://crookedcatpublishing.com/
http://www.crookedcatbooks.com/index.php?route=product/product&path=90&product_id=71


My First Tattoo!
Another personal, non-writing highlight, but just in case anyone missed the picture, I just wanted to show it off again! :3 The image is taken from the film adaptation of Richard Adams' "Watership Down", and is the Black Rabbit of Inle, also known as the Black Rabbit of Death.  Apart from the Birthday Massacre's bunny logo, I can't think of a gothier bunny!

Acceptance of Paid Submission
Until publication dates are confirmed, I'm going to keep this one somewhat quiet, but I recently had another short story accepted- this one for a paid anthology.  The story has been sent to beta readers at the moment, and publication is set for next year!  This one makes me a "professional" author now, which led me to put "writer/artist" as my work details on my Facebook account, haha!  I won't say too much just yet, but I can tell you that this short story is a Steampunk-themed horror!


Publication of "Oiran", Siren's Call Publication
My latest publication is another short story for SCP's winter eZine, "Frozen" (Issue 6).  "Oiran" is a chilling ghost story based on the Japanese legend of the yuki-onna- but with a twist!  Frozen is available for free download as a Christmas present from SCP to their readers!
http://www.sirenscallpublications.com/ezine.htm




Hope you enjoy the linkies, please do support the SCP eZines, a lot of fantastic, talented writers also appear in their pages!  I hope you enjoy my written works, be they fiction or articles.

Christmas Eve is tomorrow, so if I don't get to update before, I wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy New Year!

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http://www.egl-magazine.co.uk/
http://www.sirenscallpublications.com/index.html
http://crookedcatpublishing.com/

(All images are mine, except the FEAR anthology Volume 2 cover, which belongs to Crooked Cat Publishing)